Plan, plan, plan. Prep, prep, prep. Eat. Eat. Eat. Time it. I ate too little! I ate too much! Weekends are for pizza! Do I have the money to support my current eating habit? Do it again.
I look over at the kitchen, which sits in the bagua feng shui map in
sector 4: knowledge, wisdom, self-improvement, Saturn (representing
discipline). Last night, I cooked firm, salted tofu with olive oil,
quinoa with tumeric, hard boiled eggs, and mixed dried cranberries into a
cup of cottage cheese. I cut into a cucumber that somehow got frozen,
in my fridge! Not sure how it happened but a beautiful piece of produce
was completely ruined! No, I did not decide to give it a proper burial,
unless the trash is sufficient.
I am beginning my brave journey of actually logging my process publicly.
I've always admired people who chose to take basically near naked
photos of themselves as they whittle their bodies down into sexy healthy
goodness. Even though I have always been in the fitness industry,
fitness for me was never about how cut I could get, but instead, how
functionally strong I could be. It's not that I'm becoming shallow in
the shadow of my 40s, but that I see a different purpose and method to
my madness, now that my body has proper healing time. I was teaching too
many classes, doing too much cardio, and basically burning my body out.
Looking back at my life, my body was not behaving well. It was not
properly assimilating macro or micronutrients. I was not eating enough
proteins, and sometimes simply overeating.
Just recently I decided that enough was enough, and that it was no
longer enough to just keep saying to myself that it was enough...to just
be vegetarian and lifting weights. No. I needed a nutrition plan that
worked for me without making me feel like I needed to deprive myself of
anything. But it stands to reason, that certain foods, certain timing,
and certain amount of load, make my body feel optimal. It's not that I
can't eat anything I want. The timing though, it has just everything to
do with how well I end up feeling at the end of a day. And quite
frankly, I want to feel good enough to get that workout in everyday,
knowing this will improve my goals.
Sometimes it seems as if there's really not much to this. Then I get a
reality check about mine own nutritional complication I bring into the
picture, such as this evening, when Valrhona chocolate and raw almonds
seemed to call me at the same time, and I begin to see the patterns and
traps that most come to me for, in order to help them see a path
This summer was about going deeply within, but it was also about seeing
how others share the light of similar struggles all around. I have
finally decided to pick up my staff and lead people the way they were
meant to be lead, through the nutrition walk with more intensity than
I joined a community called Integrative Nutrition. I am now on the road
to becoming certified as a health and life coach. It gives me the chance
to dig through a number of questionable systems and get the low down of
the nutritional book writing industry. I really want to know why
authors and doctors have come to their conclusions, and how I can make
the whole process a little less confusing and a little more
compromising, more loving and more interactive, a customized
experience...just from the changes in timing I have noticed muscularity
and build. There is so much more to say, but I'll stop here by saying
that, from wherever you are, are, adding this nutrition piece to
exercise is the perfect marriage. I took my first set of pictures and I
am so excited to see the changes.